In need of change... but when?

I think I need a career change.

I don't know exactly what I want to change it to, or when the first safe time would be. My husband currently isn't working. And that's okay. We've always lived frugally and it helps in times like these. For once in my life, I don't want to do something technical. I want to do something creative. And truly, even if the job scope lent itself to some kind of creative streak in a technical world, I still think I would be happier. I don't want to subscribe to "be thankful for your job" because though I try to remind myself of that, I don't really feel it. I think later today I will spend some time looking at internal postings and maybe updating my resume. My manager is supposed to have career discussions with me. This ought to lead to him offering up contacts or possible training to help further me in the areas in which I hope to develop. I know that it is hopeless to ask for anything further when the only answer that he can seem to repeat is, "It's not that bad." He justifies to me that I should stay because he stays and even though he says he hates his job, he still continues to work.

But then life is about choices, isn't it? I have a choice to stay on doing the same thing I do, or I can start to look for something different, internal or external to this company. I don't think that his justification should keep me tied here. His choice is to stay. I have a choice, too, and I may not choose the same path as him -- justification or not.

Anyhow, that aside, I started P90X Lean on Saturday. After 9 months of pregnancy and 15 months of neglecting my core, it is in sad, sad shape. I was, however, so pleased that my arm strength hadn't completely dropped off. I had started P90X Classic about a month before I returned from Maternity leave and though I absolutely suck at pull-ups, I found that I could accomplish push-ups. So yesterday, in the core synergistics program, I was actually able to do them! :) Lifting an 18 lb toddler likely helps a lot.

With the start of my newfound ambition to be lean and fit, I decided that I *should* start the nutrition program that goes along with it (all this because I happened upon a P90X informercial and I really, really want to be like those people in the after photos). I think that they focus largely on proteins and veggies -- all good stuff. But my husband just bought a big bag of Kettle chips and then there were those Krispy Kremes that we stopped for on the way home on Saturday night... and he said something about nachos today. Damn those carbs.